Who wants sex ? 50 per session

I am cryin cuz of step mom.

she humiliated me. But i dun want to quarrel. So i kept quiet. Later she'll scold and beat everyone in the house, bro and sis. Sis only commented a small remark. Den step mom flare up. She slap my step sis. And scold her. Den she turn back, saw me sittin on my bed. And scold me for my passion for japanese stuffs. I didn't say anything at all. She just scold . She nearly wanted to beat me. I lifted my right hand up and covered my face, closed my eyes tight. My fist was clenched. I almost wanted to hit her back, but didn't.

den she went out of room. Step sis complained and cried. I didn't say much, but i cried too.

spoil my mood.

i didn't retaliate cuz want to keep peace at home.
step mom scold, beat, threaten, nag over small things. Vent anger out on ppl to relieve stress. She played stocks and shares, lost money, pay for debts, temper grew bad, started to vent anger on everyone to relieve stress.

so, i didn't let her know how broke i am. I admit i am useless, cuz didn't save up money. I left with 20 dollar, couldn't withdraw the last 20 dollar. Damn it. Tried desperately to borrow money from friend. And asked my friend to return me my money, she borrow 50 from me. I dunno who else i can turn to. I scared tt, i will succumb to temptation by jumping off 18 level. Or worse still, i may want to sell my body for money. At least i have money for daily expense. And pay for home misc expenses. I'm still tryin to borrow money from friends. But not much reply me. I will return them money once i get my pay next week. They dunno the serious ness .

if no money, no money to buy food for family. Mom scold, beat me. Sometimes i am scared of her. Cuz she is fierce and strict. I am useless, cuz i fear her. But i am startin to detest step mom. I lost the respect for her.

i dunno how am i goin to survive. I owe few friends money. And i have not return them. I'll return them, but not so fast.
i think on sun, after jammin, i'll go some nearby hotels, to get some men to bed, and earn money.

who wants sex ? I'll bed u but u gotta pay me. $50 per session. Virgin here. Guys and lesbians are welcomed.

just now go out with glg . Felt happy. At least i felt happy and relaxed. We chatted, walked from bugis to suntec and back to bugis. Now i feel much better. And i decided not to be serious in tis relationship. Cuz we did not even started. We can be good friends. And i dun mind. So i dun feel so sad already. We like each other but didn't get together, due to age.
i am so much older den him. anyway, sometimes it is better to be friends den to be couple. So wad if we become a couple?
bein couple does not means we'll be together forever.

only thing tt keeps me livin on is work(cuz earn money and my colleagues are nice). And my band. And my dear pretty glg. Ha ha. *wants a mega hugs hugs*
lol. Nite. Think can't sleep well tonight.
hope tt i can see day light.



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