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been ages since i last blogged.

blogged few times offline, saved it in a copy.
being bo liao ah


10 May, sun
3.26 am

I just watched episode 42 of hitman reborn anime.
Just now bout 8 pm plus, while watching tv, stepmom asked me to go church on sun. I was fine wif it. But when she asked me to go to the bible study on Saturday, i was kind of pissed off. That means that, I haf to go for bible study on sat, and go for church service on sun, every week. Tis pisses me off. Cuz sat is reserved for my cosplay events, cosplay photoshoots, band jamming sessions or going out with friends. I didn’t want to go church at first. Den stepmom tried to convince me in going. So i literally forced myself to join her, to make her happy. And now she wants me to go for the bible study sessions, ppl of my age group, and she actually wants me to find a boyfriend, a reliable man and get married. She finds that man who are in the Christian religion takes more care of the family. Hahhaa.... now she approves me to get a bf. But sometimes i am too tired to find a bf, i dun haf the initiative to look for one. But at times, i really really wanted to have a boyfriend by my side to comfort me, esp when i feel down , and insecure. Though i always put on a happy face in front of my friends, but actually there are times that i feel very emotional and sad.
There is this guy who tried to come near me recently. But i am pushing him away. Because i don’t know him well. And i only treat him as a friend. There is no sparks of feeling. I can’t force myself to like him. Another reason is bcuz there is someone still in my heart.
Hmmm... inspiration for a new song ..lol.
Title : distance
Used to be so close
But now our distance has been pulled apart
By unknown reasons and circumstances
Under the blue sky
On the wheels of love
We sang our love song together
Our Feelings bonded so strongly
How could I forget?
(Chorus)
Is it wrong to love you?
Doubting myself every now and then
Feelings so unsecured
As promises were never given to me
Is it wrong to know you?
If I can turn back the time
I would still want to meet you
This is a song from me to you

The words you said to her
Etches deep into my heart and pulled us apart
I just can’t forget and ignore every words
Under the black sky
With the words of love
You sang the love song to her only
Both of your feelings bonded so strongly
How could I forget?
(Chorus)
Is it wrong to love you?
Doubting myself every now and then
Feelings so unsecured
As promises were never given to me
Is it wrong to know you?
If I can turn back the time
I would still want to meet you
This is a song from me to you
(song copyrighted (C) under Pearl Wong)
Lolol.... another song dedicated to some friends.. esp long lost friends. A friend whom i called, but she is busy, wif her bf. We had lost contact .............

Title : Glass Tears

What happened to the times that we used to had ?
Everything seems that it just happened yesterday
Laughing together when the times are great
Worrying together when the times are bad
Feels that our friendship is so fragile
It breaks easily under your touch
You are so far away
Even though you are now standing in front of me
(chorus)
Convinced myself that friends come and go
Feels that no matter how hard I try
It is of no use
How could one easily forget the times we had?
How could one easily say things that hurt people?
Words that cut like knife
Hurts everyone around you
I know that it is not the real you
If you were to stretch out your arms
I will be here to take it and guide you through the dark path


(song copyrighted (C) under Pearl Wong)

Wooh.......... my inspiration is now flowing like water...yap ... in the middle of the night. lol
It is now 4.19 am. Tis is the last song for the day.
Dedicated to my real mom, who abandoned me 20 years ago. It is now mother’s day. Though i will be celebrating wif my stepmom, but i will never forget my real mom. How i wish i could see her in real person..and give her a tight slap. Lol...
Title : Embryo
Toys scattered on the floor
The little baby crying, famished
Woman on the bed slept whole night
Father said,
“It’s time to feed the child”

The couple sitted at the table
The little toddler climbed through the door, smiling
Wanted to hug the mother
Mother said,
“It’s time for me to leave”

The pretty woman walked down the corridor
The little toddler followed her, wailing her name
The woman stopped and turns back
She said,
“Call me sister.”

(Chorus)
How could one turn back against one another so easily?
Temptations in the world is so strong
Tempts one walk down the path of darkness
Forever and they are gone
Vanish Into the air
Without a trace

(song copyrighted (C) under Pearl Wong)
4.38 am liao....lol. gtg sleep liao...oyasumi nasai ~~~~


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ah whatever la.. i am now used to church session on sun. mentally prepared that i will miss out lots of cosplay events tis year.. sigh.

i want to go for photoshoot again!!
ahrgh... life is so boring without cosplay and band..