16-06-08

2 pm

I have sold my luke just now. *sad* (but i only sold the body away)
and suay suay, starhub send me a sms , to ask me to pay for my overdue hp bill.
it is 260.52 nya!!
luckily, the money came in time.
so i can pay my bills and pay for other misc stuffs.
i owe a lot of ppl money, but i borrow 10, 20, 30 only .
but it is still a lot of money. T_____T

anyway, i got my overtime claims and pay.
so, i can pay for my new gal! yeah! just in time!
my yo sd gal.
wheeeeeee

the customer even made onigiri and gave it to me as dinner. waoh!!
i was totally surprised and glad tt she made it for me.

i am really stupid to buy sora and now,i sell him away.
think there are ppl who are startin to hate me or even curse me...haiz

last nite, kena scold and nag by mom.sigh.
luckily she did not beat me.
i used the computer till 11 pm plus. just when i was bout to off the com, she came in to my room and warned me to off the com.
the next thing is she gave me a long paragraph of lectures in the living room.
nag bout :
- not lookin for a part time job on weekend, so i can earn extra money and give her.
- my obsession with japanese songs and culture (useless, does not earn any money at all)
- using the com for such stupid things, eg watchin vids at youtube, at msn
- goin out on every sun , she keeps wonderin wad i have been doing
- play guitar at home, but did not go for guitar lessons.
- being naive
- gettin into the cosplay stuffs, commented badly tt cosplayers are makin themself look ugly, bu yao nian (no sense of shame)

kao. asshole.
kanina chao chee bye
fuckin shit
chao chee bye
chao chee bye
chao chee bye


i dun like my family members to know bout my band, cuz even if they know, there is nothin that they can do.
there is nothing that they can help. cuz we have to depend on ourself, our own hard work.
so, i bo bian, told her bout my band.
she was kind of expected it. cuz somehow, she found out tt i have few friends joining the superband competition.
and my msn title was , ''lookin for female guitarist, bassist, keyboardist for a band. if interested, pls contact me."
she saw my title, so she suspected it.
i thought she will give me a big thrashing after i told her.
but she didn't.
HENG ARHHH!
there is nothing wrong with forming a band. some more, we are practicing hard, trying to look for slots to perform.
that is our passion. performance is our passion.
when i told her the members in the band. her biggest concern is the only male member (bassist).
ha.
she tot that i will be interested in tt guy.
the fact is, i am only interested in the bassist's talent, as he is experienced and has potential. and all of us are on friends term.
this is one of the reason why i wanted to form a all gal band.
cuz there is few local all gal jrock band, so i wanted to form one.
and when i tell my family members tt i in gal band, they dun haf to worry that i will get involved in bgr (if it is a boy and gal band).
one of my policy for band members, no falling in love with each other. cuz probs will arise. unless they are lesbians ?!? LoLoLoL

she only warned me, to be careful of what I am doing.
warned me in a stern tone.
she warned me, cuz if she discovered more stuffs that i am doin, and is of stupid things (to her), she will beat me, take all my pay to pay for all home expenses, or at the worse, she will move out of the house.
if she wants to move out, let her be then.
the worse scenario is that, she move out, and i will have to shoulder all the financial burden. that is fine with me.
i rather have financial prob, den to have emotional prob.
at the most, i'll have one meal per day, go home cook, dun buy clothes. tt is fine with me.
i think the best way, will be, i move out.
cuz i only have to support myself.

both my bro and sis are grown up , and they prefer to work, to earn some extra income for themself.
bro is goin ns soon.
sis is takin O level tis yr. but after tt, she said tt she wants to go work, so that she will have money for herself. she dun need to take money from mom, cuz tt is a big torment for her.

i can take care of myself, cuz i have been livin with my grandma since young. so, therefore, i am more independent den both siblings. housework is no prob for me.
and i will have more freedom!!!
no more reporting to ppl bout the time to reach home.
woooh!!
my sis even commented that i can actually move out already. i don't have to be so scared of her mom. (aka my stepmom).
cuz i am a grown up, earnin my own income, i should stand up for myself.

well..sooner or later. i'll move out. i dun want to wait till i get married, and move out to my hubby place.

lately, my luck has really improved much. after goin to the temple and takin the lucky flower bath. (thx to my step mom)
i am 50% superstitious. dunno whether it has something to do with the trip to the temple.
there is few ppl around me who are willing to help me, by lendin me some money. i didn't dare to borrow much, cuz i feel pai seh.
but they are willin to help me, after i tell them my worries.
it is till then i realised who is the really good friend who will be there to help you.

anyway, i will be more careful in future esp when i am at home.
home is supposed to be a place where one can relax.
haiz..
when at home
- no using of com
- practice guitar and vocals(when okasan is not around) (practice vocal when outside, kanasai...where got vocalists liddat practice)
- read comics, newspaper, novels, no playin of dollfie, watch tv (when okasan is around)

kanasaiii ... where got ppl at home so cham de ...
tt's y i dun want to go home early after work..her mood swing is damn big la...ass hole

there is tis fella who confess his feelings to me. i was shocked, surprised and a bit ...scared.
i treat him more like a friend and little bro.
but he is willin to help me, and listen to my stupid probs. thx bro ^^
got to know more friends thru sgcafe forum. felt happy and relaxed when i hang out with them.
at least i feel better. *phew*

6.08 pm

gtg. end of work . yeah!!