ruby

well... now i am havin dinner at kfc, at thomson plaza.
i work till 7 plus today.
didnt want to go home so early.
dun want to see stepmom face at home . sian
last nite , she nag at me again over a small thing.
nag is still fine. den she slap me on my face.
i was stunned, and scared, and angry.
i stared at her angrily.
she kept sayin tt i did not do things the way she expect.
she has high expectation, keeps demanding things from me.
her daughter, aka my stepsis advised me to move out , cuz she keeps seeing me kena punishment from stepmom.over small little mistakes. but stepmom face is distorted when she is scolding me.
i was thinkin, hey, this is just a small thing, must you give such punishment, must u give such sarcastic remarks.
she also said worse things to her own daughter (my step sis ).

sometimes i really dunno how to react
but one thing for sure, i want to make her and ppl who go against me, regret for wad they say, and make them suffer.
i want revenge

sometimes, i think, mayb i should not get a bf
i am not suitable to fall in love
i should not get a bf
but, at times, i really do hope that there is someone special there waiting for me

kept crying for past few days
dunno why
i keep feelin so insecure
i dun haf the sense of security
i really dunno wad i should do
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Ruby

brown eyes staring in front
cold wind blowing against the cheeks
with the sky in front of you
within your arms reach

red eyes turning back down
hot wind evaporates from the body
with the floor against your back
swallowing your soul down

down into the hell
hell of the place where
where all sinful souls
souls which screamed endlessly
endlessly into the night

(chorus)

all the memories in my heart
keep you here alive
all the tears in my eyes
burns your night alive
you always see me in your dream
with my black wings spread open
ready to receive you any time
you can't escape

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