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i am now eatin lunch.
cryin while eatin.
cannot go pbo liao.. so disappointed

band disbanded liao
tt female drummer kick me out
she say it's everyone decision
i called all the others and ask them
they said tt , the drummer told them tt i go out of band liao.
what the fuck la
it is her prob
she wants be vocalist
and find new drummer

den a friend of ours wanted to laugh, when he heard tt
he said tt her singing is cmi 0_o
and his judgement is good de wor

it is her loss to kick me out
i called the other guys to join my new band
both guitarists joined me and her band
bassists dun want join,after he knows the drummer is someone else
bassist dun like drummer,cuz of personal reason
fuck
den fuck off la

den the guitarists
1 left cuz still in ns, time constraint
the other left, cuz in 3 bands liao, too hectic to juggle band and studies
fuck
fuck off la

now formin new band
bassist is my guitar teacher who taught me few months ago
he wanted to play bass tis time round

guitarist has 6 yrs exp
had some originals
but is in english
i dun mind
cuz english is universal language
everybody can understand wad i am singing
not much ppl understand jrock songs

but
jrock is now soo flowin in my blood liao

at first got a female bassist join us
but she left, cuz she busy with work and juggling 2 other bands
fuck
fuck off la

i am fucking irritated and disappointed liao
wanted to disband
but drummer (my bf) said tt he will follow me de
den guitarist tell me not to give up

wanted to join a all gal band, playin punkrock
eg blink 182
but i will be guitarist instead la
i dun mind

everybody dun have enough time to practice for the pbo audition
i cannot be so selfish to ask them to compromise me
cuz i practice for such long time liao
drummer said tt he dun mind practice and chiong with me for pbo
dun wan la.. dun wan to tire him out

i just felt tt all my efforts and practice have been wasted
been crying since morning
crying in between intervals

damn fucking work oso la
kena boss scold
cuz of one colleague who left us
fuckin ass hole

as for tt female drummer
i dunno wdf la
a lot of ppl whom i know, who knows her too
they say she is egoistic
autocratic
petty
thinks she has better capability
i dunn wanna care bout it la

see who shall have the last laugh
if she wants to go the gig
she has to go thru the audition
with the high standard expectations of the judges
i dunno whether she can go thru the audition or not

and one of the judges knows bout our situation
is one of our friend
she suay suay ahrr
the judge is that person

nvm
no pbo
also nvm
but i am just so disapppointed
been waitin for it
lots of my friend is in tt event la
kunio been askin me since start of yr la
sorry kuni... i not goin liao
but i still go and watch performances lorhhhh

find members is so fuckin hard la
still havin lunch
no mood to eat liao laaaa

ah fuck it
mayb i should stop joining band
not even the all gal band

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i just want a fucking performance slot
i just want to perform
fuck
why the heck do i want to perform so badly
after practicing for years at home , in toilet
it's so fucking borin to perform at home liao
i just want a performance stage
arh
fuck man